Unwell

I’d been unwell for more than a week already. I am trying to compose myself from everything that is going through right now. It’s been difficult for me. Apparently, it is crazy. I have no excuse for my actions. This is me. That’s all I can say. 

I’m trying my best to understand everyone and everything but still I’m an imperfect human and I love myself for that. I felt sorry for people who can’t understand me. I’m trying my best… But yes, it seems to be not enough. It’s beyond my control. I can’t do anything about it. I can’t continue living my life to please everyone. I’m just me. =(

I expected too much too... I thought that there are people who cared enough about me, who understood who I am and what I am capable of. I expected and trusted too much. Apparently, they expected too much from me too… Tsk…tsk…

I learned a lot because of last week’s events:

I learned not to trust people too much.
It can break your heart…

I learned to be patient.
Eveything happens for a reason eventhough we don’t know yet.

I learned acceptance.
When you have experienced betrayal, accept it but you have no right to do it.

I learned to be stronger.
Many people depend on me and my strength is theirs too..

I learned to be silent.
If I can’t tell anything good then be quiet.
Silence is a powerful weapon.
Use it wisely…